part 1 for miss P

BREAK AND MEND

“Mandy, 16 years old, from San Diego California,” first day of class, everybody is looking at me. Am I the only new student here?, I can’t stand their stares. I introduced my self then I sat down again, but my teacher suddenly shouted, “Mandy!! You’re not done yet!” I stood up and asked what’s wrong, “Why did you transfer?” my teacher asked in curiousity. I answered honestly even though I know my reason is not enough, “I’ve had my heart broken and I don’t know how will I move on.” “So do you think this is worth it?” he suddenly asked. I looked at my back and saw the boy who asked, “I don’t know but I hope so.” i simply answered. “Sit down Mandy!” my teacher exclaimed, in shock I suddenly fell on the floor. “Are you okay?”. “I’m fine, thanks!”. Thank God he helped me, I was so embarassed. “Carl, 17, San Diego.” He whispered. I smiled suddenly the bell rang. I grabbed my things and went home after.
“Mands, how was your day? I missed you!” my mom suddenly hugged me. “Aww, mom! I missed you too, ha ha! Kiddin’ I’m only out for almost 8 hours! How could you possibly miss me?” I exclaimed. “You didn’t answer my question, how was your day? Is there any cute guy?” she asked while laughing. Me getting pissed by her thoughts simply answered, “I had a great day and nope there are no cute guys, none at all.” I went to my room as always. I lay on my bed and think about things. But there is only this one thing on my mind by the whole time, “Carl, Carl, Carl”. I don’t know why but my heart beats faster than its normal state. “Oh fudge, I don’t understand.” I whispered to my self, then I fell asleep.
“Morning sunshine! Wake up, you have to go to school.” My mom burst into laughters after her greeting. “Why are you laughing, are you some kinda drunk?” I asked. “No, no my dear. I just heard you saying someone’s name last night.” I was shocked by her response, then I asked “WHO??!”. She smiled and simply answered, “Carl, honey is this a new guy or is this your ex? I hope it’s a new guy though.” Then she hugged me before she left my room. “I’m sure he’s the new guy, why am I dreaming about him?” I said to my self. Then I went to school.
Dizzyness is the cause of my sleep during my classes, then someone ran into me and almost had me smack my face on the floor. “Sorry. I thought you’re having nightmares. I just need to do it, incase, to…. Wake you up.” Carl explained. “Apology accepted, I guess I’ve been sleeping too long.” “Yes and you’re yelling my name, its kinda creeping me out ‘cause my mom told me I was screaming yours when I’m sleeping, I guess we’re having the same dream?” then my mind went blank. He asked me if we could spend some time together, and I said yes. I felt happiness, like all the pain was swept away with just one smile. Hearing his voice and seeing his eyes makes my heart pound, usually this only happens when I’m doing something wrong. Is this wrong, is talking to him wrong?
We share the same dream. It goes like this; in my dream, I always run in the middle of no where while someone is chasing me, in his dreams he’s chasing after me ‘cause someone’s about to kill me. The ending? We always lose track of each other. I don’t know where to go, the only option is to shout his name and call for help. He looks for me and shout my name. Nice, how could that possibly be? We’re connected in our dreams. I don’t know why, but in some ways I like it. We have somethhing in common and something to talk about.
After that incedent, we always talked after school. Spending about 2-3 hours together made me forget my past faster than I’d expected.
“My dear where have you been, out with Carl again?” My mom knew me so well that she knows everything, especially about how I feel, towards everyone. Towards Nate. “Yes Mom, good thing or bad thing?” I asked. “What ever makes you happy is a good thing honey.” She answered. “Mom, he makes me happy.” She simply smiled while she walked towards me, she hugged me and whispered, “Don’t expect too much, I don’t want to see you in pain again.”
Same days passes by, I haven’t realized that it has been 7 months already since I started studying here. Too much has changed. Me, my self changed. I know for a fact that I’m ready to be in-love again. That I’m ready to be someone’s girl again.
Carl and I went to the beach. I was standing there, feeling the breeze, seated at the sand carving hearts, and looking at the sky. When he suddenly hug me at my back. “I don’t know how to tell you this, but I’m glad that I knew you.” He whispered in my ear while he was hugging me. “Me too.” I responded. “I’ve never been happier than this before, you’re made to fill the missing piece of my life, I love you.” I was about to cry when he touched my cheek and made me face him. He started wiping the tears like he knew what was I feeling. “It’s okay love, I’m not going to hurt you. I’m just here to make you happy and be by your side when you need someone.” He kissed my forehead. “I don’t care if you don’t feel the same way, I’m just here to love you. If you want me to stay away I would.” Tears fell down on my face again, “Carl, why would I want you to stay away when you’re the only one that gives me reason to stay. To be alive.” He kissed my nose, I felt chills. “ You’re the only one who made me feel that I’m special. That a broken heart can love. That there is this someone who’ll make things right and lift you up when you’re down.” “I love you Carl.” He smiled, closed his eyes and gently kissed my lips.
That was the best night, the best night after love devastated me. I am whole again, my heart is mending, its beating again like it used to be. Before I went to bed I received a text message. “Love, don’t dream about me too much. I love you.” The only question left in my mind is for how long? I admit, I’m still afraid. But everything’s worth the risk ,I guess?
We’re not officially together but actions speak louder than words right? When ever he’s around me there Is this joy inside. Everytime he says he loves me, there is this spark. I don’t know but everything fits perfectly around him. “I love you,” “I love you too.”
Sem break came so fast, I need to leave the town to visit my father. I wento to Carl’s house and kiss him goodbye. Everything’s incomplete after that day. No texts nor calls from him. No messages, it made me feel the pain I felt before.
Months passed I haven’t heard from him already, I felt weak. I don’t have the right to do anything ‘cause I’m not his girlfriend. I’m just his love.




couldn't find an ending :(